5:00a.m

We woke up at 4:30...or right around there. I had to put on some loud music (Underoath) to stir Drew and Jeff. I enjoy it. We're being picked up in 25 minutes ( we were threatened, in love, to be ready on time.) I am so excited at this point. With everything God has been revealing to me through the Holy Spirit, I cannot help but ask, "How deep does this rabbit hole go?" And the exciting thing is this now sustains a burning fire, a buring desire within my heart that I wasn't aware existed. The depth to His love, His wisdom, His heart cannot be seen which excites me so much. Imagine always able to go deeper, but never actually able to hit the end? This is truly about the journey, in light of the destination (eternity) that I never need to worry about striving for.
If i were to ask for one thing, it would be that my heart would still be open. Over the past few days, God has revealed deep hurts and pains that have not been hard to see, but hard to look back on and release the guilt and shame and be able to forgive myself. I truly believe there are still deep rooted issues hindering me from going deeper with God, and those simply need to go. There is and will be no compromise for these things. Satan has sought to separate me from my God and this will NOT do. I thank you for your continued support through prayer.