Getting into the groove...

Well, I'm finally starting to get some sort of a schedule under my belt. It's still very weird being here, and seeing the massive mountains loom in the distance, constantly reminding me how incredibly small I really am. It's actually a good feeling. God's been doing some interesting things with me lately. I've noticed my boldness is gone. For those of you who know me fairly well, you know I have no problem meeting people. Here, however, it seems my boldness has left me. I have an overall sense of timidity of me. I think God had done this because I'm not quite ready to meet people and to spread the vision yet. I've met some people and it's been good to sit down with them and talk, however this is a totally different environment than Bethel. No longer does everyone have God in common, which is such a frustrating thing. So, now, I either try and find things in common and work in my flesh, or let the Spirit lead and do things the right way. I'll take the latter. He's allowed me to play volleyball and some pool and through those, I've met some people, though it seems it's a slow process. Through my work, I honestly don't know how God is going to work. My work ethic seems to have improved 100%. Last year during college, it seems I got very lazy with work and I was honestly worried that would carry over to this summer but it hasn't and I thank God for that. There seem to be a lot of "I don't know's" about this summer and I'm very ok with that.
My spirit does hurt though. It's such a hard thing not to be able to speak into people's lives as I've been able to do at college where it seems the majority of people at college have God in common. Here, what are they living for? The weekend? Their paycheck? And at night, I see my generation, I see college students getting drunk off of cheap beer, and they tell me their majors: engineering, social work etc... and they say they want to make a difference. They are passionate, but so incredibly lost. And then I see the ones who do know God here, but still caught up in tradition simply for traditions sake. And not to say I have everything in line either, but I praise God he Has opened my eyes to His truth. It is only by His grace that I am sitting in this beautiful place, understanding His truth by His Spirit.